Sarah Speaks It

I've been racking my brain thinking about how many chances a person should be given before you completely cut them out of your life.  Is it different for family and friends? As doors seem to be closing and some of my relationships failing around me, I'm plagued with the question of is it worth it?  I've always been there for anyone I care about.  I'm that ride or die friend by most accounts.  You need me, I'm there. I may not have much, but I've always done what I can to help. Maybe that wasn't enough or maybe it was simply too much. This will continue to plague me because I've lost incredibly too much of myself in these relationships. I've invested my heart and time and that can't be retrieved.  I may have to chock these losses up to lessons learned.  You live you learn.....

In life it seems like we are forever taking one step forward, and two steps back. Where does it end?  It seems like there is no light at the end on some days. How do we continue to push through? You can't just quit, you have to find a way. I find myself continually questioning what's next? Until I figure that out, I hope that I find happiness within myself. I know that our struggles define our strengths and that will always keep me moving forward.  I want to break down, I want to fall apart, but I simply can't fall weak like that. In this cruel world, the weak are preyed upon and I refuse to be a victim.

The old saying that ignorance is bliss is so true. If you chose not to know you will remain oblivious to so many things in this world. The truth tends to hurt. So often, we don't realize the role we play in our own production. So, we stay ignorant because seeing the truth is less than blissful. It can be dark, it can be painful,however, it can also she new light on things. As long as we stay ignorant to what is truly happening amongst us, we can not expect change to come. Once those blinders are removed an entire world of possibility and true happiness opens up. A world we would not know if we chose to remain ignorant. Ignorance is bliss but knowledge and truth are power.