Blind

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As the sun shines through
I begin to wonder
What should I do?
Shopuld I stay and endure the pain?
Should I go away from the inclement rains?
Should I stay and make my eyes seem blind?
Blind to the nightmares of my once stable mind?
Blind to the heartache inclined?
Blind to teh one who gave me life?
The one who was once
The hero of my dreams?
Blind to it all?
Blind although my heart calls?

Written July 8, 2004

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