Sarah Speaks It

Earlier this week I attended a training course entitled Increasing Human Effectiveness . The training focused on positive self talk and using it to unlock your potential. I have not been able to get this concept out of mind.  I have always believed in positive affirmations and speaking things into existence, but this course took it to another level.  Self relection is a hard thing to do, but we must do it if we desire to be better people.  We can not depend on others to make us better. After some reflection of my own, I have realized that I do need to be more positive and that I need to stop beating myself up.  You see,  these thoughts that we hold in begin to affect our subconcious mind after a while.  Once our subconcious has accepted the negativity we hold within, it is much more difficult to break the cycle.  We must stop putting limitations on ourselves by placing these thoughts in our mind.  We have to continue to think positive if we desire...

As my one year anniversary approaches, I realize a common factor in many of the married couples I know.  In each case, these people expected their significant other to change once they got married.  When will we as people understand that we do not have the power to change others.  We can influence and inspire people, help them to see another prospective, but we can not change anyone. A person is not going to change in drastic ways because they said vows to you. If someone was abusive before marriage, they will still be abusive during.  If they were lazy, rude, couldn't cook, didn't clean, etc. they will remain the same during and after marriage. I am very old school when it comes to my views on marriage.  I believe that a woman is a better housekeeper and that every house needs a woman's touch.  I believe that the man does wear the pants. I also believe in equality in the home and decisions being made together. Both partners need to be able t...

So as you know, I am pregnant again.  I am currently in my 5th month and anxiously awaiting my second little princess.  I have a pretty busy life with work and raising my 3 year old so sometimes I forget that I'm pregnant.  Then I feel the most amazing feeling, my baby kick in my belly.  Last night I could feel her tumbling all around like a little gymnast. It always causes me to take a second and reflect on the fact that there is a child growing in my belly. Everything I do, everything I eat, everything I drink affects this little girl. So knowing that, how is it possible to almost forget she's there? It seems as though my world should stop and focus on her and only her. I wish it were that way.  Pregnant women should be given a 9 month vacation in order to carry our children.  Our bodies are experiencing such change during this time.  I can feel that my feet are swollen even though I can not see them. My husband has to help me put my shoes ...

Yesterday, my family lost another person.  My cousin lost his oldest son to pancreatic cancer.  Little Christopher was only 7 years old.  Although I know that God takes us when the time is right, I can't understand taking a child. This little boy fought hard, but in the end lost.  I never actually had the chance to meet him, but I know that God has recieved another angel.  I also know that he has a lot of family looking out for him up there.  I'd like to take a moment to remember all of my family and friends who have made their transition to heaven. Uncle Christopher Uncle Dan Uncle Don Ashley Thomas Little Christopher Grandma & Grandpa Dickerson May you each rest in peace and continue to watch over us as our journey continues.  I love and miss each of you!

Hey! So it's been a while since I last wrote, but today was great day!  Since I last posted, my life has definitely changed.  I found out that my husband and I are expecting our second child :) I have managed to make some progress at work and my daughter amazes me each day.  I am blessed :)

This is my first blog of 2011. I started this year out not by making resolutions, but by revisiting who I am.  I am a woman, a mother, a soldier, a lover, and a fighter.  I have been through many things, but we can all say that.  So I started looking deeper to attempt to see what others see in me.  I discovered that I most definitely wear my heart on my sleeve.  You will always be able to tell my mood just by looking at my face.  I am driven by emotion and hold it very close.  Once the emotional bond is gone, the relationship is done. I am a passionate person, and pour love into what I do.  My decisions are typically based on emotion rather than logic.  I know this may not be so smart, but it is me. I feel that without love there is no life.  Love for me is the thread that holds us together.  It's what gets us through tough times and it is strong. Love stands alone and the bond it forms can only be broken by those that hold it, not ...

For many years I searched for my father.  I searched online, I sent emails, snail mail with pictures of myself to people that I thought could be my father. I even went as far as stopping complete strangers who resembled the picture I had of him. I put together a group of friends and we called every person with his last name in the white pages. One of the letters I sent was returned about two months later. Little did I know I would eventually meet my father at that same address. In 2004 I received a call from a very good friend telling me she had news about my father.  I immediately began to tremble and asked, "Is he dead?" When Nene told me she found him, I screamed!  I was so excited.  This was truly a remarkable and definitely memorable moment in life.  In just a matter of hours I would finally meet him. I suddenly felt complete. So, she picked me up and we headed out.  We went to my grandmothers house ( the address I had previously sent a letter to)...