Sarah Speaks It

The word joy is defined as a state of happiness and felicity.  Today, I felt joy for the first time in a long time. Its a feeling that runs through you uncontrollably and it is undeniable. It brings a smile to your face and sends chills down your back. So how can we find this more often in our lives?  Unfortunately, I believe that it is not meant to to be felt all the time.  If we did, we could not truly appreciate it when it comes about. We often have to suffer for a while before we can feel joy.  You will go through so many downs and feel like your world is crumbling apart, and then one moment changes it all. It all seems worth it at that moment. I'm not really sure on how to find that feeling more, but I do know that I'm willing to endure the toughest challenge just to have that moment. True happiness is not just about your appearance or outer surroundings.  It also relies on what's inside.  If you are not happy with the person you are, you can not feel happiness.  Take

Here I stand To love you Arms wide open Waiting for your embrace Waiting to get weak in the knees Sheer happiness Is what I wish for you Pure love, what I give you Then my thoughts drift… Do you love me too? The same as I do you? Your love is strange Different to me at least Bold, yet unknown Your touch…so far from sensual Your kiss, impassionate Your eyes, never engaged So, how do I know? I ask myself every day Is it because you come home to me? Or simply because you’re here Is it your interactions? You seem to care more for others Than you do for me So again I ask How do I know? Still unsure I say It’s because I LOVE you. Love is never wrong The heart stays where it belongs Here I stand To love you Arms wide open……

Another poem I wrote... More to come I feel as though you taken a piece of my soul. It's like you have chipped a piece off very slow Your actions have hurt me more than you know I guess I hurt you too but I never really knew And if I did I apologize, you must know my love is the truth I just can't understand why you feel the need to cut so deep Why you feel the need to rip away a part of me I want you to talk to me and tell me how you feel Tired of screaming & fighting I just want to chill I want my smile back in my soul I want to feel that the two of us are whole I want my heart to stop bleeding pain I'm frightened by the thought of divorce I don't want to it to go that far I know we can work it out Please don't allow this to tear our family apart I need you you to close your eyes and see my view Understand where I come from and I'll do the same for you If we can just get to that point I know we can make it work. I love you

Within our society there are too many double standards. When you really look at, it seems as though we still live in an older America. Men and women are held to different standards. Both at work and in the home. This idiocracy stares us in the face. Men still tend to earn more money in the work field than women. A women returns from work and still has a list of things to accomplish before bed. She is usually the last to sleep and first to wake. She makes time for it all, but could always use help. Men, on the other hand, walk in the door, grab a beer, and sit in front of the tv. Double standard. Women are expected to act like a lady in public, however, men are continually reverting back to their younger days. The respect a man should have for his wife has diminished in today's society. I'm not sure if this has anything to do with more women working towards a career, rather than staying home but something has changed. It is never seen as appropriate for a woman to show her pant