Sarah Speaks It

It's one of those days It's one of those nights I just won't be able To sleep tight It's one of those days I miss you so I just wish This pain would go It's one of those days My feelings all built up Why must they hide Like a scared little pup? It's one of those days I love you crazy And I'm so glad You are my baby It's one of those days What do I do? I'm dying over here Without you It's one of those days My heart just hurts Why won't it stop? It just gets worse It's one of those days Again, with out you Holding me, touching me Do you miss it too? It's one of those days Full of emotion Crying tonight Cause I'm under a love potion It's one of those days Please understand That without you I'm shelled like a clam

My heart has never grown cold Seeing you is like a dream retold The sparkle in your eye Gave me belonging beyond deny. The warmth of your hold Began to fill a giant hole The comfort of you Gave me a feeling so true. Lying here in a state of awe Still so happy she made the call Although so surreal it seems This is truly a coming of my dreams. So many days, so many years the unknown created too many tears So much pain, so much sorrow Each tear flowing towards a brighter tomorrow. Looking, I did so much Yet I couldn't get in touch Then with the press of a button I have a father, all so sudden. My heart beats uncontrollably Everyone so happy for me My mind lost in a state of joy I now wear a smile every day.

As the days go by I search within And finally I realize I belong with him He who has been here all along The one who knows my depth The true tune of my hearts song With him, I belong He who holds me Close through the night Keeps me warm And safe from the worlds fright He has given me strength Power to succeed The power to overcome Everything from deep within As I search deep within Each and every day And I finally realize He is the man for me

Here I stand to love you Arms wide open Waiting for your embrace Waiting for my knees to get weak Sheer happiness Is what I wish for you Pure love What I give you Then my thoughts drift... Do you love love me too? the same as I do you? Your love is strange Different to me at least Bold yet unknown Your touch, far from sensual Your kiss, unpassionate Your eyes, unengaged So, how do I know you love me? I ask myself everyday Is it because you come home to me? Or simply just because you're here? Is it your interactions? You seem to care more for others Than you do for me So again  I ask How do I know? Still unsure I say because I love you Love is never wrong The heart stays where it belongs Here I stand to love you Arms wide open.

You used to be so conservative and shy You never really said a word Now that your self esteem is high You make sure you are always heard. You used to be so worried and scared Always afraid of what happens next It came to the point that your eyes always seemed teared But yet you conquered all of life's little tests. You were always there to lend an ear But still always looked for someone to listen to you Your friends always counted on you to be there But you needed someone to walk with you. Friends and family always counted on you to be strong When times were bad you were always there They knew you would always hold on You looked after everyone with such care

Through the nights I cry Though the stars shine bright These feelings not new Yet I can not fight My heart yearns It beats in pain What I feel tonight Is so inhumane I miss you so Your touch, your feel Your heart against mine A love that truly kills Your mind, your soul Your body, Your heart All a part of me From the very start True love succeeds If just through mail My heart, yours forever Through this, our love prevails Your life and mine Go hand in hand Without you, Lonely I am Words can not display My love for you My heart, my soul Shall be forever true. Written October 2, 2004

As the sun shines through I begin to wonder What should I do? Shopuld I stay and endure the pain? Should I go away from the inclement rains? Should I stay and make my eyes seem blind? Blind to the nightmares of my once stable mind? Blind to the heartache inclined? Blind to teh one who gave me life? The one who was once The hero of my dreams? Blind to it all? Blind although my heart calls? Written July 8, 2004

Body wet, slip n slide Too damn hot With you inside Heart racing Out of control My body leaning towards That one big O Hands caress my body all over Lips touch my neck Bed soak in a deep sweat Too hot inside this place You found my spot Discovered some new desire Your sweet loving Ignited my fire

I see too often that too many people expect too much at the start of a relationship. We make lists, set criteria, and if that person doesn't meet your list, you push them away. I'm not saying that anyone should lower their standards, but I do want you to understand that relationships are about compromise. You must learn to love an imperfect person perfectly. Everyone has flaws, strengths, and weaknesses. Each of us has areas in which we need to grow. Once you can see who that person really is and you can accept their imperfections, you grow to love them more. I believe that we are overly focused on long term commitment, marriage, and stability at the beginning of relationships and that can contribute to its early demise. You have to give it time to blossom like a plant in your garden. It needs to be nurtured, loved, and tended to. The more you put in , the more you get out. Get to truly know a person, get to understand their heart, soul, and desires. Learn to enjoy the present

This weekend I spent a night with some wonderful women. Through our conversations, I became inspired to write about risking something in an attempt to gain something great. One of the ladies has an interest in this man, but she's so nervous about making the first mood that she is holding her happiness hostage. You have to be willing to take a risk to gain a reward. The worst thing that can happen is rejection. Maybe that's the true fear that holds people back. I feel that even if you are rejected you conquered your fear and can do it again in the future. Ladies take the first step.