Sarah Speaks It

Its almost 2013, and I ask myself, what is the American Dream?  It's no longer what our grandparents had envisioned for us.  It no longer consists of a white picket fence and a family with a dog. So, then what is it? From what I can tell, the dream has been lost.  Young women don't know how to be a lady.  Young men no longer know what it is to be a gentlemen. Moral values are lacking.  Family values are nearly non existent. Women are now the bread winners and dads are staying at home.  Although we as a people have progressed, we have lost so much of what makes us a great country. We all just want more. Very few people think about the future, and live for the present.  So what is your American dream?

There are some people that we love unconditionally.  No matter what they do, how many times they hurt you, how many mistakes they make, how much pain you have been caused, how much it affects your life, you will always love them.  This is true of parents, siblings, relatives, and should also be true of your spouse. We are taught to love our family members no matter what faces you, no matter what happens. It honestly irks my soul that I can still have so much love for someone simply because I'm suppose to. So many people have hurt me, have affected not only my attitude, but my way of life, my soul. And, yet I still love those people with every breathe I take. I guess some things are not meant to be understood. But lets talk about those we choose to love unconditionally, our spouses. When we decided to commit our lives to a person, we commit to love them through all things. Sickness and health, better and worse, rich and poor, lies and deceit, forgiveness and pain. We make that consc

Sometimes I feel like love isn't enough. I look into your soul I see pain and suffering Anger and evil But through it all I see your heart I see the good, I see the bad I always have. My question is why can't you open up to me? You call it gay I call it emotionally free One day you have to let it out One day you're gonna let me see What it is that aches you And keeps you from me Love isn't enough Transparency is what we need Communication is key We must talk we must be free To understand the others walk No secrets and no fear Isn't that the point of being here? Vows say for better or worse I'm here to stick it out But let's be clear Love simply isn't enough You must respect me Treat me right and let our daughters see What it is to be happily married. Love simply isn't enough for me.

My eyes fill with tears as my struggle overwhelms me.I look in the mirror, but my soul is empty.I must find a way, I must find the strength.I know the solution lies within me.Beneath the skin below my soul.In a dark place that only I know.It's where my pain fuels my success.It's where my determination rests.I've got to dig deep to reach this place .So I'm going to start doing so to bring .A smile back to my face.Sacrifices must be made.

O Angel of mine As your beauty prevails You shall remain As your love continually hails O Beauteous woman you shared so much You healed so many With your loving touch O loving Grandmother Caregiver of all You are always there Whenever we shall call A creative woman You always were You showed us soWhile here on Earth A mother you were A grandmother you are Still in our hearts You remain a star An angel you were In physical life An angel you remain In spiritual light An angel you were Here on Earth An Angel you are Guiding us first. In loving Memory of Carole J. Dickerson.

Life as I know it So sweet, yet crazy Is this normal? For me, yes, maybe My mother, she works But at night she changes She drowns her life away No matter how seemingly dangerous My little sister so beautiful and strong Her emotions leak through in song My baby girl So sweet and innocent Doesn't understand Her mother so indecent And I, Sad but strong Here for everyone Yet secretly I continue falling on my own i sit and wonder when can I be weak? When will you hold me And let me fall meek? I guess for now Strong, I must hold For the need me more Than you could ever be told This is my life I live it each day All these events Paving my way. written 3/3/2005

Its one of those days Sorry to say It's one of those days Filled with dismay It's one of those days I miss you endlessly it's one of those days please, visit me It's one of those days You're affecting my heart It's one of those days It's tearing me apart It's one of those days Again, I am alone It's one of those days I just sit at home It's one of those days My bed is empty It's one of those days Sorrow was sent to me It's one of those days Quite unnecessary It's one of those days I know you care about me It's one of tose days I just cant help It's one of those days My heart has a welt It's one of those days Knowing you are there It's one of those days Still wishing you here It's one of those days Wishing upon a star Its one of those days Wondering where you are It's one of those days Crying at night It's one of those days I can't fight. Written 1-21-200

You make me feel Some kind of way The warmth of your soul Brings me a smile And fills me with joy Your friendship is everlasting Unconditional and true I wish I could be the same to you Unfortunately the circumstances Don’t allow so, however, There’s something you should know. You will always have a special place in my heart In my mind, and in my soul. I will never forget that you were there A shoulder to cry on, when I needed an ear. Thank you for always being here I love that we can pick up Like nothing has changed Our connection always remains You make me feel some kind of way.  

As I walk through the valley of life I discover shadows hidden beneath smiles I discover strife hidden by success Although I know, I do not believe Believe there is total joy to be found Believe I am the prettiest around Believe that it will be okay Believe that I will find my way I cannot figure out why I feel this I cannot fathom being so lost I can only pray that I will soon find my path My path to true happiness My path to joy My path to a real family My path to unconditional love My path to life As I walk through the valley of the shadows of life I realize that even the strongest can break It is time for me to let go Let go of the pain Let go of the strain Move on to higher healing Move on to higher feeling As I walk through the valley of life I walk through shadows yet to be conquered I walk through challenges yet to be met As I walk through the valley of life I continue to grow, I continue to learn That through all pain there is glory I will overcome