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I haven't slept as much as I need

My eyes are tired

My soul is weary

Some days I feel that my strength

Is failing me

But then I move on

Take another step

Cook another meal

Diffuse another fight

And tuck them in another night

I choose to fight

My head hits the pillow

My heart and soul are heavy

Yet sleep still escapes me

So I pop up and wander about

Too often I find myself at the fridge

Maybe a snack will help me drift

I lie back down, close my eyes

Sleep still escapes me

No matter how hard I try

The wind is whipping fiercely outside

The sound is eery

It makes me uncomfortable inside

Each day brings a new challenge

A seemingly sudden surprise

I shuffle the cards once again

And rework the deck I was given

I have no choice but to keep going

I refuse to be beaten by you again

Just a few more months

And maybe I can rest

Once it's final and our marriage

Is a thing of the past

Through all the stress

I don't regret a thing

I learned several lessons

While I wore your ring

I learned the depth of my strength

The value of my love

The worth of myself

The meaning of trust

Now I can use those lessons

As I push through

To something so much better

Better than you.