Healing Honestly

Weight loss, then weight gain

Lonely nights, I toss and turn

This unrelenting hidden pain

Inability to control my tears

Mood shift from bright to blight

Struggles to get out of bed

Every day seems a constant fight

Did you know this is what healing looks like?

They say I have a new glow

Behind the dark circles and weary eyes

I’m glad that the glow still shows

Shining through as a reminder

That on I’m on the right path

Through it all I smile, I laugh

I can see a light at the end

I know it’s just around this next bend

The bends keep coming

And I keep searching

I keep moving forward

And keep getting hit

So much loss has been suffered

Oh, but so much has also been gained

Through the pain and dark, lonely nights

I have found some clarity in my thoughts

Survival mode has been disengaged

I’m learning to let go and to feel each pain

I’m learning to live with hope

Cutting energetic cords

I yearn for something more

Finally after all those years

I feel like I can release the pain

At times, I’m overwhelmed

I even question if my thoughts are sane

One look in the mirror and I realize

How much joy and love

Are held in my eyes

I may be bent, but I’m not broken

For the first time in years

The path to my soul is open

I’ve bared it all to those I trust

Vulnerability is a tricky thing

Makes you feel feeble

But reveals your strength

I’m rebuilding my heart

Please, just be patient